“Life is
10% what happens to you
and 90% how you react to it.”
–Charles R. Swindoll
When asked to describe me, my friends will use words like:
happy
welcoming
inspirational
godly
sweet
I’ve been told I’m known for my friendliness and my always open shoulder.
I’m active in 4-H, TeenPact, work, and life in general.
All of this describes my 90%:
how I’ve reacted to life.
But what most people don’t know about me is my 10%:
what happened to me.
Because my 10% is that I was bullied for five long years.
I would be lying if I said I emerged from this ordeal stronger all on my own.
Yes, I emerged a stronger person,
but not because of anything I did.
Who I am today is all because of God.
Many times, I found myself looking at the footprints in the sand and, upon seeing only one set,
wondered where God was in all of it.
What I failed to see
was that He was carrying me:
every step of the way.
Throughout those years, He gave me someone who constantly reminded me that He was in full control,
even when I felt like life was spinning out of control:
my mother.
I remember late nights when she would hold me as I cried.
She always told me the same thing:
“And we know that all things
work together for good
to them that love God
to them who are the called
according to His purpose.”
Romans 8:28.
People who know me and knew me as I went through this trial in my life
would probably be shocked
if I told them
I am a victim of bullying.
I used to equate this to putting on a mask.
And for a while,
I believe I was.
But God’s constant prodding and my mom’s constant prayer made me realize something:
I must count it all joy.
Being joyful when all I wanted
was to curl up in a corner and cry my life away
was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done.
But I didn’t do it on my own.
The reason I can be joyful is because
God is teaching me
joy
peace
forgiveness
and faith.
I’ve forgiven those girls.
It took quite a while, but God never gave up on my heart.
“My brethren,
count it all joy
when ye fall into divers temptations;
Knowing this,
that the trying of your faith
worketh patience.”
James 1:2-3
Thank you for sharing that! And for your transparency. You have a powerful testimony that you use to glorify the Lord. =)
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